Read My Lips

Don't take it away.

2011-12-29T08:32:00.000-08:00

I am happy, and I don't ask for anything else other than letting me be.

Don't ruin this.

And to you, thank you for being the reason behind my smile and the cause of my happiness :)

If you can't understand me, understand this :)

2011-12-18T12:38:00.000-08:00

Seoul Garden

2011-12-08T06:31:00.000-08:00

Seoul Garden courtesy of Naqiuddin Md Shah for our class dinner. I love my friends, they've been for me through the hardest times. This is my 6th semester, and though I am ecstatic to leave Melaka, I don't think I ever wanna lose them. Diploma in Photography and Creative Imaging batch 2009-2012

You know this is about you.

2011-11-26T09:59:00.000-08:00

Because unfortunately, this is something so true about you. You can't just expect me to forgive you and believe that after 3 long months of disappearance, you feel remorse over breaking my heart? You had your chance, yet you walked away to another girl. Then again, second chances would not be needed if you did things right in the first place, in your case however, plenty.

You say things as if it is as simple as you make it sound to be. Use the 'handyplas' to mend my heart? Kinder Bueno chocolate as an act of sweetness and sincerity because apparently its my favourite? You must be blind and stupid to think I was the girl who fell in love with you over these little things. I was seventeen, of course I was stupid to love you. Yes, we had our ups and downs and somehow those times in the past we did manage to overcome it. But, I had managed to overcome your lies and cheats and other bull-fucking-shits one too many times. At that point, I could no longer bear it. I don't even know who I was in love with. Now, it's gonna take you more than text messages and kinder bueno chocolate with attached notes on it to prove your remorse and sincerity. Because frankly, you're no longer worth trusting.

You lied so many times, yet I looked way pass beyond that because I still care about you. You cheated on me so many times, yet I looked way pass beyond that too because I denied the truth. I denied the fact that you were no longer the person I love, and trust. You were just a stranger, physically attached to the person I never wanted to lose.

I was dumb to actually believe the things you say, and I would be even dumber to believe you now. How dare you ask me if I was still mad? For crying out loud, you broke my fucking heart, you heartless scumbag. I am furious to the point that I'd never wanna see you again. I still don't wanna see you though, just so we're clear.

You know, the way I see it, the only reason you are trying to apologize to me again is because all your futsal buddies are slow socially. After your tournament, everyone is back to their own businesses and you are left with no one to entertain you. I gladly ask you now, where the fuck is your Ija, your Izzah and everyone else now? Are they not with you, that you had to come crawling and beg for my forgiveness? You are pathetic. You gotta earn my forgiveness and that's gonna take you more than you can afford.

Before, yes. I would forgive you, but not anymore. I am not some toy you could play around and when your friends are back again, you'd throw me away again, just like you did so many times before. I am a person with feelings, I am not heartless like you. Because the last time you did this to me, its no longer a mistake, its a choice you made. You choose her, over me.

Its funny how I never wanted to say goodbye to you because I loved you all too much. Maybe, its because I don't love you anymore that I don't care. I'd rather lose you than risk my happiness again, I'd lose you if it means I can be happy again. I don't care apparently, I don't care about you anymore.

I trust you have so many other people in your life, you can get so many other girls. But, you can never have me again. You had me once, and you are 3 months over due. Thank you so much for teaching me the ways of life. You made me stronger, wiser and more independent.

p/s: Here's another secret : I had previously written down a note for you as a closure for myself but never managed to send it to you. That one was much more kinder than this, but I guess I was wrong about the last note. This is the real one, because now I know how I feel. End of story :)
xoxo.

Result for Semester 05

2011-11-06T08:36:00.000-08:00

People have been bugging me about my results and how I did this semester. I was in no obligation to tell them and show off but looking at it, this is nothing to be ashamed of. My commitment and effort reflected my grades just fine the past semesters before and I never questioned any of the decisions my lecturers decisions about things. I am just grateful I never had to repeat any paper, or re-sit for unnecessary exams.

I know there are people who has better grades than me, how they achieved deans list for 5 consecutive semesters, but I am proud of myself and for that, and to keep everyone shut, here is what I am willing to show you. just this.

And for the past for semesters, my grades have gone up from 3.2 to 3.32 to 3.4 to 3.4 again and finally to this. Syukur alhamdulillah, this is our chance to go on stage and take picture with the campus director. My friends and I. I am proud of everyone in my class.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Hello.

2011-11-06T08:13:00.000-08:00

It finally paid off, the 5 days a week of 8am-6pm work, the document archiving, the file packing, the box-making - everything finally paid off. Here I am, a month later with yet another achievement. I finally got my hands on the one I have been determined to own, the one I have been saving every penny of every day, the one I am proud to show people because apparently I paid this one with every cent of my own penny, to the very last dime.

The Blackberry Torch 2

I know there are many of you who disagree with my choice of phone but really, I have friends and family who uses Torch 1 and until now I have yet to hear them complain about their gadgets. The trick to having one of these beauty is to actually take care of them with love and care (aicey poyo).

Though at first I came across a difficult path of decision when I was at the store. I found out that blackberry has another new (and not really famous) model called the Blackberry 9860 and it cost a lot cheaper than the torch 2.

Its a full touch screen phone by Blackberry. Its sleek and its sophisticated but its just not what I wanted. If I wanted to buy a full touch screen phone, why not buy an iPhone? Clearly the price doesn't range that much but well, I am not much of an apple fan. Steve Jobs made an amazing change to the world of technologies, don't get me wrong. I'm just not a big fan of his product. That's all. People have their own wants.

Well, here's the full description of both the blackberry I posted above :

Blackberry Torch 2

GENERAL	2G Network	GSM 850 / 900 / 1800 / 1900
	3G Network	HSDPA 850 / 1900 / 2100
	Announced	2011, August
	Status	Available. Released 2011, August

SIZE	Dimensions	111 x 62 x 14.6 mm
SIZE	Weight	161 g

DISPLAY	Type	TFT capacitive touchscreen, 16M colors
	Size	480 x 640 pixels, 3.2 inches (~250 ppi pixel density)
		- QWERTY keyboard - Optical trackpad - Multi-touch input method - Proximity sensor for auto turn-off

SOUND	Alert types	Vibration, MP3 ringtones
	Loudspeaker	Yes
	3.5mm jack	Yes

MEMORY	Phonebook	Practically unlimited entries and fields, Photocall
	Call records	Yes
	Internal	8 GB storage, 768 MB RAM
	Card slot	microSD, up to 32GB, buy memory

DATA	GPRS	Yes
	EDGE	Yes
	3G	HSDPA 14.4Mbps, HSUPA
	WLAN	Wi-Fi 802.11 b/g/n, UMA (carrier-dependent)
	Bluetooth	Yes, v2.1 with A2DP
	Infrared port	No
	USB	Yes, microUSB v2.0

CAMERA	Primary	5 MP, 2592х1944 pixels, autofocus, LED flash, check quality
	Features	Geo-tagging, continuous auto-focus, face detection, image stabilization
	Video	Yes, 720p, check quality
	Secondary	No

FEATURES	OS	BlackBerry OS 7.0
	CPU	1.2 GHz processor
	Messaging	SMS, MMS, Email, Push Email, IM
	Browser	HTML
	Radio	No
	Games	Yes + downloadable
	Colors	Black, Gray
	GPS	Yes, with A-GPS support
	Java	Yes, MIDP 2.0
		- Digital compass - Document viewer (Word, Excel, PowerPoint) - MP3/WMA/WAV/eAAC+ player - DivX/XviD/MP4/WMV/H.263/H.264 player - Organizer - Voice memo/dial - Predictive text input

BATTERY		Standard battery, Li-Ion 1270 mAh
	Stand-by	Up to 308 h (2G) / Up to 300 h (3G)
	Talk time	Up to 6 h 30 min (2G) / Up to 5 h 50 min (3G)
	Music play	Up to 54 h

Blackberry 9860

GENERAL	2G Network	GSM 850 / 900 / 1800 / 1900
	3G Network	HSDPA 900 / 1700 / 2100
		HSDPA 850 / 1900 / 2100 / 800
	Announced	2011, August
	Status	Available. Released 2011, September

SIZE	Dimensions	120 x 62 x 11.5 mm
SIZE	Weight	135 g

DISPLAY	Type	TFT capacitive touchscreen, 16M colors
	Size	480 x 800 pixels, 3.7 inches (~252 ppi pixel density)
		- Optical trackpad - Multi-touch input method - Proximity sensor for auto turn-off - Accelerometer sensor for auto-rotate

SOUND	Alert types	Vibration, MP3 ringtones
	Loudspeaker	Yes
	3.5mm jack	Yes

MEMORY	Phonebook	Practically unlimited entries and fields, Photocall
	Call records	Yes
	Internal	2.5 GB storage, 768 MB RAM
	Card slot	microSD, up to 32GB, buy memory

DATA	GPRS	Yes
	EDGE	Yes
	3G	HSDPA 14.4 Mbps, HSUPA 5.76 Mbps
	WLAN	Wi-Fi 802.11 b/g/n
	Bluetooth	Yes, v2.1 with A2DP
	Infrared port	No
	USB	Yes, microUSB v2.0

CAMERA	Primary	5 MP, 2592х1944 pixels, autofocus, check quality
	Features	Geo-tagging, continuous auto-focus, image stabilization, face detection
	Video	Yes, 720p, check quality
	Secondary

FEATURES	OS	BlackBerry OS 7
	CPU	1.2 GHz processor
	Messaging	SMS, MMS, Email, Push Email, IM, BBM 6
	Browser	HTML
	Games	Yes + downloadable
	Colors	Black
	GPS	Yes, with A-GPS support
	Java	Yes, MIDP 2.1
		- Digital compass - Social feeds - BlackBerry maps - Document viewer (Word, Excel, PowerPoint) - Media player MP3/WMA/eAAC+/FlAC/OGG player - Video player DivX/XviD/MP4/WMV/H.263/H.264 - Organizer - Voice memo/dial

BATTERY		Standard battery, Li-Ion 1230 mAh
	Stand-by	Up to 330 h (2G) / Up to 320 h (3G)
	Talk time	Up to 4 h 40 min (2G) / Up to 6 h 50 min (3G)
	Music play	Up to 44 h

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Experiencing the office hiatus.

2011-10-19T07:04:00.001-07:00

It's been about two weeks since my last post. And I admit that this is one of those non-fancy post where there will be no pictures and no interesting story. For that, I apologize. But I am currently in the mood for some writing, which is why this post is even posted at all.

First up, I hope every one of my loyal (though I know not many) readers are doing fine. To those who are on holiday, I wish you enjoy the most out of it. To those who are on final examination, good luck. To those who are working, lets not stress too much and so on the list goes.

So, it has been about two weeks since I did anything interesting with my life. Two weeks since I socialize with my friends, two weeks since I did anything fun. Because here I am, three weeks in on my job at the Leighton company, filing project lists and archiving documents and storing files in boxes. As for that, RM70 a day is actually worth the pay because although it sounds horrific, lame and boring, its surprisingly more relaxing than I thought, plus its much easier than it sounds.

One more week to go and bye bye Nokia E71. Oh yeah, I sold off my blackberry earlier this month. Forgot to mention that.

All I have been doing for the rest of my evening after work is stay home, watch TV, play a little bit of guitar and just stare into space until I fall asleep. See how un-interesting my life is right now? Haha, but I don't really care. Cos my bestfriends are busy as well and at least I got every weekend off. There's really not much to complain about. Best part is, all of the sweat is gonna pay off :)

stay safe guys. until we meet again.
xoxo

rockaway 2011

2011-10-08T14:24:00.000-07:00

Pictures of event occurs from bottom to top.

Rockaway Festival 2011. Where do I even begin to share you my most awesome rock n' roll concert experience ever? For start, we arrived (we consist of Eem, my sister and I) at about 6 in the evening. And that meant I missed They Will Kill Us All, and that left me pretty upset. But its okay, move on minutes later.

So, as we arrive (Eem and I, my sister of course was not there to rock away with me, she went on with her friend) Story of the Year was performing. The crowd, well, wasn't so bad. There were mostly like younger teenagers there for that particular band, and for All Time Low. So, later on All Time Low was up. yada yada yada, still the crowd wasn't going nuts yet.

Until, Pop Shuvit turned up. Unfortunately they were 20 minutes late, and that kinda pissed a lot of the already fired up boys. As they started singing Marabahaya, the crowds went berserk and started moshing and kicking. I just had to join, I was moshing along, jumping, screaming. I felt my toes were being stepped on, but I didn't care. Fans were crowd surfing (which I hate the most cos I never seem to reach them, and because when they fall on your head, even when you swear, it wont take the pain away), everybody was pushing everyone, doing circle pits. It was amazing.

Then, there was Metalasia. Abang-abang metal who were pretty awesome for older dudes. As Massacre Conspiracy was on stage, I just couldn't stop screaming my lungs out. Ash was so adorable, growling and headbanging on stage. He was amazing, it gives me a total boner man. Hahaha. And the crowds, I tell you, if they went berserk earlier, then this time they went 5 times more. Ash had us do the circle pit, which I had to join too cos it was awesome. Everyone moshed 5 times more, kicked 5 times more. Which was a lot of fun cos I never moshed this hard in my life.

After Massacre Conspiracy ( ASH, I LOVE YOU ), came One Buck Short. Singing for about 15-30 minutes? I can't really remember cos I, and I am pretty sure everyone else as well, was saving our breath for The Used so all they did for this act was sing along.

Then, ladies and gentlemen, the moment we all have been waiting for, THE USED ! Fuckhellyeah. Belum start apa apa, and I swear I was only about to take one good picture of Bert as he walked on stage for less than 2 minutes, I felt like a tsunami mosh strike from the back. And at that moment, I swear I couldn't do nothing. I just followed the flow of the moshers, giving in to everyone that's kicking,moshing,elbowing,pushing and even stomping me while I screamed my lungs out the the lyrics of The Bird and The Worm.I was so stoked, I barely breathed when the moshing strikes. Everybody wasn't giving in, they gave a piece of themselves. And even then, I still managed to sing along all the way breathlessly. Other song list consist of Cut Up Angles, Pretty Handsome Awkward, On my Own, All That I've Got, I Caught Fire (In your eyes), Best of me. Sumpah I sang to each and every one of those songs like a boss! hahaha.

All in all, despite the rain, despite the endless moshing of stinky (but handsome) boys, anything for The Used ! Oh, even grabbed myself a rockaway T-shirt. Though I wished for the blue autographed t shirt. Anyways, I had so much fun and I wish next up concert for me would be Silverstein ! yeah.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah.

jessie j

2011-10-04T03:46:00.001-07:00

:')

The Used here I come.

2011-10-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

Currently busy, butttttttttttttttttt

Can hardly wait!

Whoever is going to the biggest rock festival this year, I will see you there.
Errr. Except you, you know who you are. I don't wanna know anything about you.

xoxo.

It's here

2011-09-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

A Short Circuit Production, directed by Ameerul Affiq Adenan. Starring Liyana Jalil and Khairul Shafit. With help from Naqiuddin Md Shah and KYO Propaganda and crew members consisting of Adib Keturunan Sulaman, Asyraf Nazmi, Fariza Aniah Zaharullaili, Nur Atiqah Farhana and Wani Lerr comes a story of a boy with an extraordinary ability. But with great power, comes.....

tengoklah sendiri, it's posted on my facebook and it's public. Only for a while :)

xoxo.

Behind the scene : DERIA

2011-09-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

I am finally over semester five and I am happy to say our short film project is a success. I am busted tired, constantly hungry and in major need of hibernation. But in the end, every drop of effort the team and I made, was all worth the results.

It took us 3 long day and night to finish shooting the footage to our video. Sacrifices has to be made in order to get everything done. Money, time. We woke up as early as 9 in the morning and end the day at 5 am. But, I ain't complaining. I had the time of my life throughout the whole experience. The endless laughter, lame ass jokes.

Even while actually doing our assignment, I really enjoyed it and I had fun. It felt more like a business holiday than business, you know what I mean? Anyways, I posted the behind the scene video here, the actual video is too large to be uploaded here, an unfortunately too long to be uploaded on youtube. I've posted it on facebook. I've made it public (for a while), do watch it. Enjoy.
xoxo.

Batu Caves - My Procrastinated Dream

2011-09-11T12:50:00.000-07:00

I have accomplished one of my ever procrastinated dream - to walk the stairs of Batu Caves. I was so happy I finally get to climb the stairs although now my legs are shaking and trembling. It was the highlight of my weekend. Walking down the stairs is much more horrifying than actually climbing up, I promise you. All in my head as I take one step at a time going down was ' I hope when I fall, no cute guys would be around '. Okay, I'm lying. That was my second thought. I literally pray in my head, hoping I don't fall.

Inside the caves was magnificent. It amazed me maybe because it was my first time there. I can see bats blindly flying above me, pigeons too. Inside the caves were temples. Small , mini temples. What moved me most was, learning the culture of another race. I had so much fun!

Here are pictures :

xoxo
Impian yang tertunda telah dicapai hajatnya, ALHAMDULILLAH dan terima kasih kepada kawan baik saya Eem Boie.

Teman Setia :)

2011-09-10T11:43:00.000-07:00

The whole purpose of coming home this weekend was suppose to be about getting my assignment done. Because this is it, here comes finals. Just to prove you guys how finals are treating me, stress pimples have been popping up on my forehead like connect-the-dots puzzle. Truthfully speaking, I was enthusiastic about travelling photography, I was up and ready, battery charged and stuff. And there I was, accompanied by the sweetest friend, Eem, snapping pictures of architectures and lights and environment until......it rained. 2 days straight. Kill joy, I know right?

But I did manage to get a few good photographs regarding the assignment. Going to go again tomorrow. And, just to prove how much fun I was having with the assignments. Here are picturesssss :D

xoxo.

More raya pictures.

2011-09-06T08:51:00.000-07:00

Just so you could understand how I feel.

2011-09-01T12:33:00.000-07:00

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out
[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place,
another time,
another world,
another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

Aidilfitri 2011, so far so good.

2011-08-31T09:47:00.000-07:00

Its the 2nd day of Syawal, and everything is just going great. Good food and great family is an epic combination. Even my assignments are still on hold -_-" I'm looking forward to raya with my friends soon. Lots love.

2011-08-29T04:04:00.000-07:00

p/s: IGNORE ME, I LOOK LIKE A RETARD :D

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Ampun maaf dipinta atas segala salah dan silap.

Moga Syawal ini diberkati dan lebih bermakna bersama

yang tersayang.

♥ Jaja Je Lah

Syawal 2011

2011-08-26T18:16:00.001-07:00

Its less than 4 days to the long awaited Aidilfitri celebration and I’ve been up since last night just thinking about it. It is currently 8.30 in the morning and good morning everyone.

This might just be the last Aidilfitri for my diploma mates and I. I am certain, despite everything I went through, despite the ups and downs, despite the intensity of it all, I will miss my campus life. I will miss my classmates, my house mates, everything and everyone.

Half of this year is gone, and yet I feel as if it was only yesterday I had my first Ramadhan away from home. My first ramadhan with my friends, my first ramadhan in Melaka. And that was, approximately 2 and a half years ago. I am now twenty years old, and I have changed so much in the past years.

Time is literally running out, and I realize that I sometimes take things for granted. Sometimes I ridicule on the most absurd situation, I let life pass me by and allow people to catch me off guard.

Sometimes, I forgot to say Alhamdulillah for every little miracle and blessings, I swear and curse instead of saying Subhanallah, I temper around wrecklessly instead of ziqr. I lost touch of everything.

Maybe this is the reason I am hurt, the reason my life is a mess, the reason I don’t focus and I lost all my priorities. Maybe, because I was selfish, Allah took pretty much a lot of important things/people from me, out of my life, just to wake me up from this virtual world.

So, along with this opportunity that is given, I would like to seek forgiveness from my family,my Muslim friends, my Muslim sisters and brothers and everyone in general for the mistakes I’ve done through out the year and my past life. For my endless rantings, my bad temper, my selfishness, my ill-behavior and everything. I am sorry for everything.

Alhamdulillah for another chance to open my eyes to another day, and breathe to another fresh air. To be able to speak and say La illa Ha illallah. To hear the beautiful azan and to taste the nikmat of Allah S.W.T

Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin.

Sincerely,

Fariza Aniah Zaharullaili / Jaja Je Lah

Pop Art

2011-08-16T14:49:00.000-07:00

Because I am craving for Tutti Frutti right now :)

And this is my first pop art attempt for advertorial.

JajaJeLah

Dope.

2011-08-11T13:09:00.001-07:00

A bitch with an attitude.

A girl with a mind.

And a lady with class.

Cos I'm bad ass.

Jajajelah

2011-08-06T12:36:00.000-07:00

Its nice to have someone there, someone who listens and make me smile with lame jokes. Who doesn't judge and whom I trust. Someone who seems to be missing all the time, but is actually there. Someone I enjoy talking too. Thank you friends and family.

xoxo Jajajelah.

2011-07-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

This is my great grandparents from Tok Mak's side. Sad enough, I only got the privilege to meet my moyang boy, Dato Hashim. I remember how to him, I was his favourite great granddaughter. He would come by our old house in Sec 14, and bring chocolates and sweets just for me. He would be calling my name out from the gate, just so I could run to him. Only me. How he would call out my name with his funny english accent, how he would love to see me joget and mumble just makes me miss him so much more. He would tell my mom how I resemble so much like tokmak to him.

And until now, my tokmak and mama would tell stories of these about him to me, as if it was my first again. I would sometimes cry or just hold back my tears because I miss him dearly. I was so little when he passed away, I was too little to appreciate him for a longer period. How I wish I could see him again someday, one day maybe. I love you moyang boy.

xoxo Jaja je Lah

Raindough @ Urbanscapes

2011-07-18T11:54:00.000-07:00

Urbanscapes 2011. The weather was hot, the field was muddy and people were everywhere. It was such a busy day, I didn't even had the chance to sit. Business was great too. I didn't really get to walk around because I wasn't feeling up to it. I had tonsil problems and it affected my mood most of the time.But I had fun really.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Saja nak panggil Memanja sebab anak manja.

2011-07-14T12:04:00.000-07:00

So, after I got my cast open, I couldn't wait to set foot outside my door house. I'm stuck at home for 5 days. I mean home wasn't bad at all but Harry Potter just couldn't chain me at home. I wannaaaa watch my redhead boy in action!

So, despite reading the book 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows' like a thousand of fullmoons ago, I still couldn't hold my breath for the epic finale. And for the review, the graphic was awesome, the story line is just detailed (not to the core but still better than the 5th and 6th) and well, I watched it with Anish Z. Premiere class lagi sebab dia kata sana kerusi comfy. I'm all good for Harry Potter's sake, gold class pun no problem. Straight from the start to the end, was just as good as the book. And yeah, maybe I cried a little, so what. I cried reading the book too. A little, really. Part Severus Snape and Fred, Tonks, Lupin dotdotdot. Not gonna spoil the moment for those who haven't watched it.

Then after, bawak this Memanja go Curve cos memanja was craving for something sweet. But the, cupcake chic punya cuppies dah habis, takde apa yang best. Tutti Frutti pulak takde flavour yang memanja suka, last last dinner kat Ikea. The good old Daim cakes and Meatball days. To write this now, I feel hungry again already. Jeez.

Laaaaaast sekali, si memanja teman pergi Andalus, saja nak torture dia. Dia bahagia dengan iPad, okay lah tu. Taklah torture sangat, but I was looking forward to meeting Aiden though, sebab gambar Aiden nampak garang so nak tengok dia in real life garang ke tak :D Okay dah merepek, I'm off to tidur now. Goodnite lovelies.

Oh and btw, memanja semangat buat baju Deathly Hallows sendiri and pakai the baju sebab nak tengok Harry Potter. I want oneeeeeeee oso.

xoxo. Jaja Je Lah.

peh.

2011-07-10T23:25:00.000-07:00

Kau memang bodoh siot. Bahalol.

I feel oh so very sorry for you.

Pathetic. SO I conclude :

Life is too short to waste my time, energy, & love on a fucking asshole
like you :)

xoxo. Jaja Je Lah

Bukit Tinggi, Amsterdam buatan Malaysia.

2011-07-09T03:05:00.000-07:00

video by @Ameerulaffiq

Bukit Tinggi was an awesome experience. I had an ultimately wonderful time with the classmates, the batchmates and the lecturers. Despite the objective of the trip was, after all a product shot with nature, I had the most amazing stress-release time. To be far away from Melaka, from the hectic environment of schools and pressures. I love my classmates, even if some of them does get on my nerves sometimes.

p/s: sorry tak banyak gambar. malas nak upload. tengok video je eh :)

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Ordinary weekend.

2011-06-29T04:07:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, sorry for the recently emotional posts. Mood swings have done no good to me, and PMS only made it all worse. Its week four of my fifth semester here, and I thank God for not making it hectic, or just not yet. It has been four weeks in a row that I've spent the weekend back in Petaling Jaya, I have no reason as to explain why. There's really not much to do here in Melaka.

Just last week, on Wednesday, my batch mates and I had this little trip to the movies for our review report. The Green Hornet. To say this out now, I still haven't done the report, oh gosh. It was a fun night. I expected more for the mentioned movie, it doesn't wow me enough.

So, yes. Thursday right after class I drove back to KL with none other than my bestfriend, Shila Suhaimi. Apparently, she had plans to go to this chic pop bazaar in Jaya One with Pika on Saturday, I decided to tag along. It was nice to meet up my old friends too. The bazaar was hectic and crowded. Not to mention, things there are quite pricey. Still, that didn't stop me from buying a top. Just one top, really :)

And then, for lunch we had SUSHI KING :D

There goes my another weekend. Today is Wednesday, and I am looking forward to another weekend. It's going to be an exciting one because this week, I am going on a trip to Bukit Tinggi with the classmates for our advert and commercial illustration assignment. Can't wait. I'll update soon loves.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

:)

2011-06-24T14:21:00.000-07:00

I love my sister :D

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2011-06-24T05:16:00.000-07:00

Tak semua kau rancang kan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika aku mencintaimu juga
tidak adil tidak adil baginya

kau tak penah cuba memahami aku
cinta kau ucap kau tak penah tunjuk
dan bila tiba saat aku kehilangan
beban yang tak penah kau cuba ringankan

Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika aku mencintaimu juga
ini bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

I took my chance.

2011-06-23T10:05:00.000-07:00

I'm never going to be the girl, who is brave enough to tell you how she really feels. I'm never going to be the girl that someday you will fall for. I'm just going to be that girl, who sits by and watch you smile, just being happy for you, for every apparent reason.

I'm never going to be the girl, who people remembers to help. I'm never going to be that girl, who people sees as someone worth saving and helped, just because I am not as important to them as they are to me. I'm just going to be that girl, who sits by and let people take her for granted, for every apparent reason.

I'm never going to be the girl, with so much success and wisdom. I'm never going to be that girl, because all she is before is nothing, not much of anything really. I'm just going to be that girl, who let herself make the same mistakes and fail yet again, for every apparent reason.

Well, no. Not really. Not anymore. Because :

I am that girl you one day regret not knowing, because you know of my capability to make you happy. My desire to keep making you smile, my intentions to keep you safe and secure.

I am that girl you one day regret never remembering, because you know of my friendship and my importance in keeping my words and my loyalty. My conscience of a girl, my strength of keeping you strong and solid.

I am going to be that girl you one day admire for her dreams and faith in achieving what she believes in, because you know of her past failures and her broken hearts when everything else fades away. She keeps her head up, when everyone else forgot about her, she forgives yet again because everyone else is just human, and she depends on herself for her happiness because no one is worth her wait.

That is who I plan to be in my own life, you're in no position to make it otherwise. For this, I thank you, to whom it may concern, because you've just made this clear to me who my true friends are, in good times and in bad times, and who my friends should not be, a friend with benefit. I forgive you anyways, because I just do not want to be the person you are to me :)

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

p/s : And somehow I thought you've never changed. Well, you did, in so many different ways, worse.

Lights and shadows.

2011-06-21T04:46:00.000-07:00

People change, sometimes they're red, sometime they're green. I don't feel like this is what my life is all about, cos just about a year ago, things were fine and just. Now, everything is complicated and irrational. People get selfish, too self-absorb. Like they are so sure of themselves that considering people around is not an option, or even worth the debate. Its true when people say , 'in times of need, that is when you realize who your friends are.'

Maybe sometimes being alone is a good thing, you don't depend too much. Because, the way I see it, they never really cared, so why bother now right? This is bullshit, and a year from now, all these crap isn't going to matter. So be it, I don't make much friends here, as long as I have those appreciates me, I'll be just fine.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Danny's Birthday Dinner

2011-06-19T00:52:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Danny, I love you.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

enough said.

2011-06-10T10:18:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-04T09:38:00.000-07:00

Don't make permanent decisions based on temporary feelings.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

4th of June

2011-06-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

Here's how my day got down :

First, had an impromptu lunch date with my dingding at Johnny's Steamboat Jusco Au2. We had our usual orders and dessert, our usual chats and jokes. Later, just decided to go to the KL Bazaar at Solaris Mont Kiara, but there was nothing much there. Bosan jee -__-"

Since we were in the neighborhood, jumpa lah abang Zaiful kat tempat kerja dia - Kiara Ville. The place is so nice. We even got free drinks. Abang Zaiful made passion fruit smoothie especially for me, and sangat sedap okay smoothie tu time time tengah hangat cuaca.

Later, my family decides to have dinner at my favorite Japanese restaurant in One Utama - Shogun. Peh, heaven jee makan harini. Got Tutti Frutti for desserts lagi, I was one happily filled girl today. Thank you so much for everything, everyone.

As for birthday gifts, tokpapa dah bagi kereta Viva putih (dah tolong tint, repair,service etc), received a brand new laptop, duit from papa and ABANG, yess abang saya bagi duit. Happy sangat. And yong bagi charmbracelet. Well, these are all so far. Malas lah nak update best best. Hahaha.
sorry. Thanks again everyone.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Happpppyyyyyyy sangaaaat

2011-06-03T12:21:00.000-07:00

It's only 3:12 in the morning on a happy 4th of June, and I still have a lot to look forward to today. However, I am already in a happy mood and having a great time. I spent the whole 12 hours with my favorite person. Thank you so much for spending your time to be with me.

So far, I have received so many birthday wishes through facebook, twitter, bbm, whatsapp, text messages and calls. Thank you all for the birthday shout outs and wishes.

I also have received a few in advance birthday presents, but I'll post about those later. What I love most is the Plants vs Zombies present, just because I have been searching for it for so long. I even got my fav character, Walnut :D

There's really not much to say right now, I'm quite speechless and surprised. Lets just wait and see what happens when the Sun rises up. Right now, its better I get some sleep. The mosquitoes are sucking like nobody's business. Take care guys. Night.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

A picture speaks louder than words.

2011-06-02T10:02:00.000-07:00

I've made it through the first week of this semester, and boy, I am so not thrilled. People say 'if life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show them you have a thousand reasons to smile'. So I figured, there's no way turning back now, I'm a step forward than a half way through. Instead of denying their assumptions and discrimination against me, I just smile, agree upon whatever words of misdeeds they throw at me.

I never really got along with those kinds of people, those kinds of mindsets, you know. I have always have my own thing, my own principles. Mom told me to just accept this and go, what's important is that I don't follow their irritable annoying mindsets, instead create my own. I don't have to be like them, typical and annoying.

For a minute there, I wanted to cry for how he treated me, then I only felt like fighting back and yell. But instead of all those things, I restrained myself and held on a little longer so that I could just be left alone. Sorry for back-sassing, but I was trying to make it through the day.

For 3 fucking semester here, I have tolerated people assuming I'm this kind of person, or that kind of person when really, even my classmates don't know me that well. I leave people alone, and I barely show myself at the scenes, yet this is what I get. Just because I am me, just because I am not afraid to be me. This is just like highschool, with the addition of the male sex, gossiping and assuming like typical melayu. zSheesh.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Because we believe in the phrase Once a liar, always a liar :)

2011-05-29T11:19:00.000-07:00

Meet Anish Zehan. Poyo kan dia, lepak minum kopi o ais pun pakai cermin mata hitam -___-"

Okay,moving on :D

We were never really close to begin with, but I just enjoy being around her because she makes the stupidest jokes and she just listens. When you decided to ditch me and your mum's bday to be at Bukit Jalil, when you decided to lie straight to my face about no money and whatnots, I just decided to forget you and just meet my friend.

After sending the cake to Aunty Mariam for her belated birthday (yes, I am a better anak than you in a million ways), found out the truth about your sudden absence and called Anish sebab apparently, yes I rindu dia -___-" (memang tipu lah kat situ hahahahaha, maybe rindu sikit).

I was just in the mood for a talk, since I was already in the area, culik je lah minah kurus ni. Chatted about a million and one things, make jokes and just catch things up. Nampak dia macam sangat bahagia sekarang, so I'm happy for her. Awak pun dah semakin gelap, Cyberjaya panas eh eh eh? Hahahaha.

We chatted for almost 3 hours, dari pukul dua lebih petang sampai pukul 6. Lepastu terus lupa pasal nak packing balik Melaka. Tapi after that, although kita bercakap je, I felt a wholeeeeeeeeeee lot better. Serious best. Walaupun tak sentuh topic si bodoh tu :D

Anyways, good luck for your finals. Next week I balik tuntut hadiah.Ok thanks :D

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Tabah, pasrah, entah lah

2011-05-27T22:33:00.000-07:00

Taktau lah kenapa kebelakangan ni awak suka buat saya sakit, kenapa awak tak macam dulu. Entahlah kenapa awak macam ni, terasa gila kot. Rasa nak menangis, tapi ada ke awak nak kisahkan? Saya taktau nak buat apa dah. Diam je lah. Ok bye.

Rentap Futsal Putrajaya

2011-05-27T13:27:00.000-07:00

Nope, I did not do to the Himpunan Seribu Belia Putrajaya apantah. Instead, I went to Kosmo's Rentap futsal (I know tittle event tu I salah, asal korang faham) to support Shila and Mimi. I woke up at 930am, leave home at 1030am and drove to Putrajaya for the first time, all by myself.

Presint 18 , selamat senang nak cari. Eventhough I missed a few turn and took the wrong exit,managed to be there at 11am. Parking pun cantik je kat depan depan futsal court tu. So, I thought I was going to miss their first game, rupanya terlampau awal pulak saya datang. Sampai pukul 11, game start 2pm. Penat lelah menunggu je, dengan panasnya, tak makan sehariannya. But its okay, this is Shila and Mimi. I'd do anything for them.

Habis first game, first thing, cari minuman. The weather was so humid, I sweat as if I yang main futsal. So, waited until 6pm for their last game. Janji kata kalau pukul 12 tengah hari tak habis lagi, nak balik. last last , sampai game dorang habis baru balik. Hahahaha, takboleh lah.Mesti kene tunggu sampai habis. I am such a good friend.

Seriously nothing much happened. Sat around all day, waiting for their turn to play. Sumpah takpernah nampak ramai gila kaum 'tomboi' sebanyak itu dalam satu tempat. Ada yang takde rupa perempuan langsung dah -___-" Refferee tu pun dah confuse. Serious kelakar. After rentap, took Shila for dinner at Kelana Jaya Fendi Ikan Bakar. The rest went back to Ija's house to do what the fuck I don't know.

Whatever it is, I had fun despite hurting my ass just sitting there cos I spent the day with my two best friends just being pissed together. Atleast Mimi bawak si Kenit and Kiwi, her sugar gliders. Tu pun saya kacau suggies tu tidur, tidur serious kalahkan saya -___-" Fail.

Oh guess what, it's already Saturday and I haven't even started packing yet. Cool kan? Malas sangat nak balik Melaka, leaving you here in KL , sumpah nak menangis sumpaaaaah! But its okay, end of this week nak balik KL balik. By the way, I have got my car back, all handsome and shiny. Cermin siap tinted lagi, so nais.I'm so happy. No smoking lah in the car after this, hahahaha. Okay bye.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Rindu

2011-05-25T12:32:00.000-07:00

After so long, finally met up with the high school sweeties - Naimah Mohammed and Aira Farisa. Since most of us are broke, we decided sit and chat at the anw here in Petaling Jaya. There were only four of us, unfortunately. We chatted for a long 3 hours, basically about things happening in our lives, things that has happened, our past. Everything. I miss them so much, I wanted to cry. I was in such a vulnerable state at that moment.

Decided to go One Utama after, when Shasha had to go home, because apparently our sweet Naimah wanted to shop for shoes. Didn't do anything much though. Later on, sent Naimah back to Shah Alam since its late for her to catch a bus. Especially with the stupid fuck acid splasher on the loose. Aira was my companion to Shah Alam, sebab takut sesat. Hahahaha.

Now my holiday is complete, and I feel blessed to have them in my life. After all these years (eceyhh), no matterhow busy we are, how far away, they find the time to actually meet up for real and sacrifice time just to catch up in our lives. These are my best friends, including SHILA. They don't just talk the talk, they also walk the walk. These are the people who stays in my life because they are truly my bfriends

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

#currentlyaddictedto

2011-05-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

"A mob of fun-loving zombies is about to invade your home, and your only defense is an arsenal of zombie-zapping plants"

Angry birds? Not anymore. I am currently raping mama's ipad, playing this game when i have the time. The game is addictive and it's super fun. I love the characters of the zombies, they're all so cool and annoying. 'Brains...brains...brains'

The plants, are so cute and adorable, I couldn't retrieve all of the plants, there are just too many plants. So here are some of the plant available.

There's the cactus, the mushrooms, the walnuts, the sunflowers. There's alot, and I can't name them all because I don't remember. But my favourite has got to be the walnut because it's cute.

In the game, as you proceed to certain levels, the zombies leaves notes and the notes written are hilarious and witty. Here are example. Zombies with a sense of humor.

There are a few stages: The fog, night, day, rooftop, backyard, frontyard. You have to start playing to understand.

and this is how I spend my holidays.Thats why I have been boring, my post has been boring, and my life, unfortunately, has been boring too. Yes, I am boring. But, i love this game. Heeee. Oh, here's the credit song of the game, serious cute.

Ariel.

2011-05-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

Ariel balik rumah pukul 4pagi semalam, kepala berdarah. So, yong and I bawak dia pergi vet to treat the injury. Kesian dia, tengok doctor tu lap darah kat kepala dia. Sakit, asyik je lari kat saya. Doctor tu bersihkan telinga dia, takut ada infection. Susah ada kucing jantan, suka bergaduh sebab berebut betina nak*ehem*. Lepastu tadi, masa nak check temperature badan dia, kene sumbat thermometer kat bontot dia, dia punya takut, terus terberak kat bilik treatment tu. Hahahahaha, kesian doctor tu.

Tulaaaaa, siapa suruh nakalkan? Bila kene kurung, meow meow tak berhabis, aku jugak kesian tengok. Tapi bila dah lepaskan, kau pulaj gangster suka cari gaduh. Adoiyai Ariel. Nak kata cage awak takde makanan, saya siap bagi mackerel and salmon lagi. Isk.

Esok nak hantar dia pergi groomers, nak bersihkan dia after jumpa doctor. Sigh, tak sampai sebulan kaki injured, buat hal lagi. Geram betul, selamat saya sayang awak. Saya jugaklah manjakan awak suka bagi makanan sedap sedap kat awak.

I love you Ariel.

#happy

2011-05-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

I was so excited about Pirates of the Caribbean 4. Looking at the awesome posters and trailers, I couldn't wait to watch it. There were gonna be mermaids, and I was expecting actions and sword-fightings, Jack Sparrow.

So, on its first day of screening we watched it at One Utama. I was sort of disappointed , there was a lot more talking than action. Si busuk sebelah saya siap tertidur -___-" Tak elok betul perangai. But, I like the mermaids, semua nya hot hot. Jack pun awesome. Masih sebal lagi.

I had fun through out the day, serious rindu time time macamtu. Felt like I was 17, when I first fell in love with you. 3 years ago.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Ihateyou.

2011-05-20T01:01:00.000-07:00

Isnin , 16 May 2011.

Checked in at Somerset Ampang with the girlfriends, Shasha, Cho and Shila. The place was beautiful, though it wasn't a five star hotel. Somerset Ampang is what you call a five star service apartment. The room, or apartment if its what they call it, is a dream. Untuk rumah bujang, terasa kaya jugak kalau dapat menetap kat rumah macam tu. We were all in awe, and our room is on the 17th floor. So, imagine the panorama scenery of buldings and rushing cars and lights. Though its nothing much, it was enough for us to daze upon. At night, we could even see Genting Highlands from the pool side. Awesome. Sorry tak banyak gambar.

So, after swimming and relaxing, we decided to have dinner at Ampang, so Tanjung was where we were headed. It was raining, drizzling really. But nonetheless, my vision wasn't always clear. So, I missed the turn I was suppose to take and , guess what happen, yep.Long story short, accident. Kereta orang tu setakat calar, nak bising maki hamun aku. Babi, kau tengah angin ngan awek kau, kau nak shoot kat aku kenapa? Bodoh.

Thank God none of us suffered any injuries. Shila and Shasha was a little dizzy due to the impact of the car, thats about it. Whoever was there that night, I thank you for being there and help. To mie haha, thank you for calling me out of the blue that night, and thank you for coming to my rescue. Hafiz Shukaimie, cho. Semua lah.

The problem with my car now is that, the left door. It won't shut tight, the left tyre behind, dah senget ke dalam, the bumper, mudguard, rim, allignment kereta. Sigh, puas menangis malam tu. My car got towed to the workshop just this morning. So, for now I will just wait and see.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

My Mandarin Escape

2011-05-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

You know, to be honest, I wasn't really looking forward to this holiday because for some reason I had a feeling in my gut it was going to be a broke and frustrating holiday. It was at first , lonely boring pointless. But not anymore. To be frank, this is the only holiday, in the past two years of me in uni, that I actually had the time to relax and spend time with the family and friends.

Here's a post in tribute to my happy and not-so-boring-anymore holiday.

13 May 2011 - Mandarin Oriental :)

We had a complimentary room for 2 day 1 night stay at the hotel, free breakfast, free massage, free hi-tea and free dinner. Also, free use of the hotels' facilities. That means sauna, steam room, jacuzzi, swimming pool and gym.

Ayahde, wande and Danny checked in one room. My sister, Yong and my two cousins - Cho and Shasha and myself checked in the room next door. So, there was a total of 7 us.

The view from the pool is soo nice. Though it was nothing much, buldings and buildings and more buildings, it looks pretty at night with the lights on. I successfully made it through a whole ten minutes in the sauna, for the first time. Selalunya takleh tahan, not because its hot, because I could barely breathe. The heat was so intense that to even it vaporises air. Steam room, takpayah cakaplah. We only made it through five minutes, maybe less. The aroma of sweet lavender and the steam mixed together, buat rasa macam nak pengsan. Dah lah takboleh nak bernafas sangat, pulaktu letak wangi-wangian. Keluar je steamroom, rasa macam dah jadi pau ayam, atau steamboat/ The best part of it all, had to be the jacuzzi. Sampai tertidur berendam badan :D

Since there wasn't enough voucher for all of us, we decided to be fair and even. Yong and Shasha went for hi tea. They were given two sets of hi tea selection with 2 flavours of teas. The presentation of it all was so adoreable, and it was an awesome hi-tea. Awesome sebab yong and shasha takleh habiskan, call kiterang suruh turun and habiskan. I was on pastries haven.

Cho and I decided to go for the dinner buffet, and just our luck, it was Seafood night - sushi , lobsters ,tiger prawns, oysters and moooorrrrreeee. There was even a little chocolate fountain, strawberry, apple, grapes and marshmellows dipped in choc. Shashimi, smoked salmon, peeerrrrgggghhh. Siap call yong and shasha suruh dorang 'buat buat' swimming, so that we could feed them the awesome food. Malam tu kenyang takpayah cerita punya.

(gambar poyo nakjugak ada KLCC, selama ni tengok tourist aje)

Breakfast the next morning was incredible - American breakfast ftw. We had our last round of swimming and jacuzzi moment before our 3pm check out. We missed lunch by the way. Hahahaha, motif cuti ni asyik makaaaaaan je aku -___-" Esok kene start jogging. Isk.

Oh, remember the last time I posted about how my life was bleak and dull? The table has turned and I had bargained more than I EVER asked for. But its a long story from here, this post has even exceeded its main purpose and amount of pictures. I'm going to sign out for now, I promise to update as early as tomorrow or as soon as possible. Take care now everyone. Have a good night :)

xoxo JAJA JE LAH

mood (dah lama takletakmoodkan?) : happy and feeling the love.

Saya pergi Kajang jumpa Haji Samuri.

2011-05-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

I wasn't up to anything today, the initial plan for the day was to sleep and stay at home, after picking Adik from school and sending him off for his tuition class. My plan shifted entirely, when Eka texted me , 'Ja, nak pergi Kajang tak lepak dengan Yap?'.

Of course nak! Because one; It has been years since I went to Kajang cos there is really no reason for me to go there. Two; Nak jugak tengok rumah Yap and Acap and lepak dengan dorang kat Kajang pulak.

Arrived Kajang around 4pm, and the sky was pouring down colourless droplets. It rained heavily. Our first stop was Yap's house. I was in awe when I saw a brand new Audi TT. It took Yap an entire 15 minutes to get dressed, and for a guy, thats a seriously long time to get dressed. Since his friends, Nabil and Kutil (kot nama dia) wanted to join, he took us to Paparich, where Eka finally got her lunch.

Later on,went to Ummie, where we meet more of Yap's friends. We talked and waited for Acap. We were there for more than an hour, just sitting there, talking. Only then, Yap decided to take us to Satay Kajang Haji Samuri. Yuuummmmmyyyy :D

We ordered 10 sticks of chicken satay and 10 sticks of beef satay. Satay Haji Samuri, the best in Kajang (Y). Bila dah habis makan,baru Acap sampai, nasib badan lah Acap, Eka dah balun satay sampai habis. Hahaha. Last last, teman Acap makan kat Mamak. It was frustrating to watch the news, cos the mamak was too loud with people's chattering that it drounds the sound. -__-"

Thanks Yap and Acap, bawak kami jalan jalan. It was a great day for me. I had fun. Tunggu korang turun PJ, kami pulak bawak korang jalan jalan. I am blessed with great friends, I am a happy girl.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Movie.

2011-05-09T09:08:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I posted about movies.

Penunggu Istana - Ok, where should I begin? First of all, the show was slow and snoozing, I don't really fancy 'paranormal-activity-like' filming, it gives me major headache. The movie was disappointing, and a bluff from what I heard and searched. I don't deny there are parts where my heart beats with adrenaline. The 'act' was a little too fake for me, and watching with the boys from class made the film ten times less scary than it should be. Their bad jokes sorta blew the suspense away.I would rate this about 4 and a hlaf out of ten.

Fast Five - This movie blew me away with the gorgeous cars and bad ass action. This is the real car racing shit. I got blown away by the sense of humour and the mesmerizing car drifting scenes and race, the entire movie. The best fighting scene ever - Dominic and Hobbs. This movie I'd watch twice without hesitation. I can't wait for the Fast Furious 6, I see Letty returning, she's not dead, wtf. Haha. This I give a 9 out of ten.

Still , I want to watch Thor, Beastly, the Asthon Kutcher and natalie Portman movie of which I have forgotten the tittle. Gawd, I missed a lot of good movies. I'll write soon loves.

xoxo Jaja je Lah

Best Friends, Happy Friends.

2011-05-09T08:49:00.000-07:00

There's really nothing much going on in my life, nothing interesting. I only have sufficient friends I cherish, and I trust. Sufficient friends who I believe can make me smile, happy. From my high school best friends [ Shila ] , the cousin [ Shasha ] , the other high school babes [ Naimah, Aira etc ] and not to forget my uni-mates [ The B family ]. These are the people I am blessed with, besides my mother and the rest of the family. God has provided me with enough love and care, because I have them. I'm happy.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-08T09:08:00.000-07:00

Hello guys, I know I have been missing for a few days, maybe weeks, I don't know, I lost count. But I've realised that I can't run away forever, so might just get over the grieve and move on as it is. I'm sorry for being such a coward, but I really needed some time off. I would be lying if I said that nothing is bothering me but, I do feel alot better than I was. I'm happy to be back and I'm comfortable just as I am, single.

Happy Mother's Day to all the beautiful mothers by the way, every mother is special in their own precious ways. I am glad to have an amazing mother to stand by my side for 20 blessed years. I know we might not be on the same page sometimes, but I never loved you any less. Thank you for loving me unconditionally, for the support, the bottomless sacrifices, the life you provided me with and all the wonderful years to come. I'm sorry for not being a gifted speech giver, but I love you nonetheless. Also, I am sorry I couldn't get you anything fancy for Mama's Days.

Celebrated Mother's Day at One Utama, with the baby brother and Mama. Though we did nothing much, it was a beautifully blessed sunny day. We had Nando's for lunch, tutti frutti for dessert and Mama even got me a pair of converse sneakers. Since Vans had nothing interesting for me.

We're going to watch a movie tomorrow, Fast 5. I can't wait! Its been so long sinced I watched a movie with my gorgeous mummy.

Its best of I sign off here, take care everyone. Be safe, until we meet again. Loves.

xoxo Jaja Je Lag

2011-05-01T12:58:00.001-07:00

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2011-05-01T12:20:00.000-07:00

Hello.

I know its been weeks, and I'm sorry. Have been through some really rough patches. Semester 4 is officially - wait.for.it - DONE FOR.

My life has been going pretty well. I don't cry anymore, though sometime some things of you still pops up. I can't help but feel guilty for the way things ended. But, to think about it, I wouldn't be where I am now, if I didnot go through what I did. So, yeah. I hope you're doing okay though. Alive atleast. I promise,one day,we'd be friends again.I hope we will. Just not now. I need some time away.

I hope you'll find someone out there who can make you happy. I pray for your well-being and I pray for the day we meet, to not be under any bad circumstances. I miss you.

p/s: I don't feel like blogging right now, I just wanted you guys to know I'm still alive.

♥ Jaja Je Lah

Its tragic

2011-04-21T12:59:00.000-07:00

I know I have been missing. I'm trying to build a new life after you. Excuse my absences. I just want to enjoy my isolation, thank you.

I hate you

2011-04-18T08:16:00.000-07:00

Still remember this promise, I don't think you can keep it. Please throw it away. thanks.

You can just leave for all I care, you were never really here anyways.

spotted.

2011-04-10T01:25:00.000-07:00

For Twin Towers @Live 2011.

Acap, Mia, Anam, Me, Chulat.

Finals

2011-04-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

Yeay, studio works are finally done. The last results are much better than yesterdays. I guess its sort of a blessing in disguise, to have my pendrive last minutely break and losing my fabric assignment. Now I'm super tired and sleepy but I can't seem to fall asleep. Counting days, and the end of week 12 is only hours away. Everybody is stressed up with assignments and finals. I still have my graphic booklet to do, my director assignment and also my photojournalism. That's alot of work for two weeks. And I still have one paper to sit for, History of Malaysian Comtemporary Arts which unfortunately falls on the last day of the exam marathon month, 30th April.

I'm currently alone at the rent house, Karen. Yes, we call our house Karen for some apparent reason. I'm really bored and I'm just not in the mood to start designing my custom album just yet.My head is spinning and I want to rest for the night. But as always, sleeping is really a difficult thing to do right now. I'm just happy that most of my assignments are done, and I'm glad to have friends around to help.

There's the YMC thing tomorrow, most probably I'm going because I ain't gonna wanna be home alone. Lily's gonna facepaint, so might as well go and support right? As for tonight, Vampire Diaries re-runs. I'll see you guys later.loves.hugs.kisses
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xoxo JAJAJELAH

Frenzy

2011-03-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

Angry Bird customised cake from raindough. I helped I helped. Buat the mata and the beak je lah. Hahaha, time nak send kat Bora Ombak serious kelakar. Salah jalan, call orang ni , credit habis, call balik. Tetibe teringat Ampang Puteri. Hahahaha, bodohnya. Well, saja buang masa blogging sebab tengah download Illustrator and In design , nak buat assignment senang. Whee, oklahbyeee.

If only I could

2011-03-26T14:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wish my life is more like the movies, just when things got bad, I get to get my memories erased, especially memories of you, maybe just memories of you. In this case, I wish it was more like The Vampire Diaries where Damon Salvatore can compell me and erase memories I suffer to remember. But this is reality , this is life. You don't really get what you want, and the saddest part is, you can't really seem to let go because you keep feeding yourself with memories. It hurts.

Sometimes I wonder why I still keep holding on, why do I even care? I tell myself the same thing everyday but I just don't exactly do anything about it. You're not even worth my care anymore, but still, I love you. It tears me apart everytime I say to myself I still love you. Why am I not giving myself a break, a chance to be happy? I mean, if my life is miserable because of you, why should I have you? I really do wish that I could actually admit, three years ago was the biggest regret I ever made. Fact is, I can't.

This is torture, I just wish everything was easy. I just wish that I could turn back to my childhood days, when the only thing that hurts was the scar I left on my knee, because at least mama can just cure it with band aids and wisdom, and ten minutes later, it was as if nothing ever happened, like magic. I just wish love was that simple, life was that simple. Or maybe I just wish, I hadn't met you.

You're my only pain, because nothing, and I mean NOTHING ever hurt so much like you. Thats a shame, for someone I care about.

xoxo Jaja Je Lah

bosanlaaaaa

2011-03-26T10:58:00.000-07:00

By now, I should really not procrastinate my assignments anymore. Final project assignments are already given, I should really be doing them by now, especially my web design. Director 8.5 hates me. But instead, I went out to KLCC to watch the light switch off for Earth Hour. And wait for it to switch on again.

It was nothing much really, but I had fun. I was with Shila, Anna, Adie, Aimie and a few others. Udin Sham was there, also Shila's new boy , Hafiz Shukaimie. They were really there for their assignment but I just had to tag along.

Went to Murni USJ later for dinner. We talked and laughed, a very typical late night hangouts. Now that I am home, still instead of facing the photoshop or illustrator or director, I am facing my blog, my facebook, my itunes and my tumblr. I just don't feel like doing my assignments just yet. Hahaha.

Si kurus yang panggil kenjona muncul kembali. Ingat dah tak nak kawan,sebab diam je. hahaha. Well, everyone has been busy.I know I have, still with this sleeping disorder. I blame the stupid fuck really. Hahaha, now I gotta go. Terasa bosan, nak layan youtube. Kbai :)

xoxo Jaja Je Lah